Sunday, January 15, 2017

Yes, I am going to be a high school English teacher…

I was sharing my aspirations for my future of becoming a high school English teacher. I received the usual shocked face with the “good luck” and “you’re crazy” following.

I was then asked, “So… what will you do if a student says they don’t want to do it?" (referring to a lesson in my classroom, I’m assuming)

So, I wanna tell all of you something. Here is my response to the many usual questions and reactions I receive about my future aspirations:

First, if a student says they don’t want to do something, I will assess the situation. And here is a little tip: HIGH SCHOOL STUDENTS ARE STILL PEOPLE TOO, YA KNOW! Sometimes you’re having a really crappy day, sometimes your brain just isn’t in it and its focusing on something way bigger than the bell ringer for the day, and just like every other human on earth, sometimes high school students are just unmotivated and don’t want to do anything at the moment. And that’s okay. If a student 'doesn't want to' it does NOT mean they are a bad child, a lazy student, a typical teenager. I hope to know my students well enough to realize if they need to take some time to themselves; and if that’s gonna be in my 50 minute class period that day, then that’s okay. I also hope to have a well enough relationship with my students that if any of those things above are going on with a student of mine then they can come to me directly and personally, and let me know. So I can say, “go in the back and put your head down/draw/write/take some time alone for today”. I mean come on, they’re high schoolers, young humans, and one day or one 50 minute class of being unmotivated aint gonna kill them (or me as a teacher.. it's okay).

Second, I quickly learned that the relationship and connection you have with your students is more important than jamming knowledge and facts into their brains. And here is another little tip: OH, HOW TIMES HAVE CHANGED. And that’s okay, too. It’s important to establish and grow trust and respect in a classroom. That is actually not saying to demand respect because the teacher is the authority and a dictator and that is how things need to be in a classroom. No. 
Yes, the school systems have changed and society has changed. Just watch the news and open your ears and admit that we all are aware at how the youth and young generations are. But it is so important to gain trust and respect between you and your students equally. For some, that may be to actually teach the students what trust and respect for others even means. Some students don’t have good home lives, some students don’t have parents or any parent at home, some students may have deeper demons that go past that. But this is where the fact that times have changed comes into play. Because a teachers job is not so simple anymore where back in the day students sat and listened simply because they were told to, because clearly that is not the case everywhere anymore. That is also not to say that students these days should be babied or have their hands held or be given entitlement, because that is absolutely not the case. But with generations and society changing, so does education and so do students and so therefore, so should our approach as teachers. It is my job as a teacher to begin with knowing my students, gaining our equal trust and respect, and then my job is to educate them. That may be about reading a damn complex book and writing an essay on it, or that may be about a life lesson, which may not have anything to do with school. But my job as a teacher is to care. My job as a teacher is to reach that student in the prior paragraph who just didn’t want to do it. My job as a teacher is to not only prepare these students to move on to the next grade level, but to prepare them not to be dum dum citizens of this broken society! It is my job to not only educate these students but to first teach and encourage them to WANT to learn again.


If and when a student says that they don’t want to do something in my classroom, it won’t be because they are disrespecting me as authority, it won’t be because I failed as a teacher, and it won’t be because they don’t believe that they have a bright future. And I will make damn sure of that because that is why I am proud and excited to become a high school English teacher. 

Wednesday, June 15, 2016

A Wish To Love & Be Loved

I believe that I am an old soul. I’ve been on this earth before at some point. And from the time that I was 16 years old I have always said that all I want in this world is to love and be loved- and with Jesus Christ I’ve found that.

I can love others. I can love my friends, my family, my future soul mate and husband, my neighbors, and even strangers on the street. I can show them love and compassion and care and I can do that because God loves me and shows me those same things. He sent His son down to die for me, to die for my sins so that I can know Him and have a beautiful relationship with Him. And I can experience God’s unconditional and everlasting eternal love towards me and everyone else. I can be loved on this earth by man because God ultimately has a plan for me. God has a plan for me to truly love and be loved in this lifetime, and to know in my heart that I have HIS everlasting love no matter what and that I will one day have eternal life with Him in Heaven.


But in the meantime I know that because God loves me, that I can too love others and be loved by others. And it’s unexplainably incredible how a silent prayer I’ve had in my heart since I was 16 years old is being confirmed and promised by my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. 

Wednesday, April 1, 2015

The Beginnings of my Journey

March 31st 2015 from 9pm-10:30pm was the true beginning of a new journey for me.
I want my future self to look back and be able to remember that date :)

About a year and a half ago I became interested in my faith and my relationship with God. I didn't have any religious role models in my life or religion in my family life. But I noticed that I was slowly starting to open up my mind and my heart to having God in my life, or at least in my thoughts. I started believing that things were happening because they were supposed to happen that way and that there is an ultimate higher power reasoning to why it happened.
I was nervous and scared. I didn't truly seek God or open up my life to have Him in it. I thought this whole 'journey' thing would be overwhelming and I didn't want to take it on alone.

It wasn't until March of 2014 when I got a knee injury from cheerleading that I made the choice of thinking, "since this has happened to me, I guess it's Gods way of saying I shouldn't be cheering right now." I didn't feel like I should recover my injury and get back to it, as much as cheerleading was my whole life. I truly felt that maybe this is my time to end this part of my life and go find something else.

& then not too long after that is when my grandmother got sick. On August 14th of 2014, my grandmother passed away. When I woke up that morning, something told me to wear my beautiful ring that I had inherited from my grandmother. Little did I know, that was God's way of signing to me 'today is the day.' I had just moved into my apartment back at college but I rushed home immediately.
After that, it seems as though everything went down hill. I was distraught about my grandmothers passing. I had to go back to school because classes were starting soon. My heart was hurting so bad and her getting sick then passing seemed like it happened all too fast.
About a month later, we lost my family home. My father couldn't keep up with all the bills on his own since my grandmothers passing and the eviction happened even quicker. Next thing I know, my father had nowhere to live and had no money to find a place. He moved into my 1 bedroom apartment with me. I was happy to have him because as much as I was hurting, he was hurting even worse. I knew I had to take care of him no matter what.
My sophomore year of college, my father lived with me and paid my bills. I didn't have a job. Financial problems were through the roof from past bills and it seemed as though every little thing was popping up for us to pay for - my car getting towed, a speeding ticket, unknown toll violations, my dads car breaking down. There was so much happening with no money to spare or save.

So on March 31st of 2015, I attended an Athletes In Action meeting at my college. It was a group for athletes to come and support each others faith in God. I was no longer an athlete but I had wanted to go a few times my freshman year and just never did. But on this day I had just decided with my friend to go with her. When I got there, I immediately felt a feeling of overwhelmed emotion. I was excited, nervous, heart thumping, emotional. But it soon smoothed out and I felt calm and just excited to be there. When the pastor started talking and sharing a story from the bible, I started crying because it hit home. & I realized, thats how it works. It is CRAZY how things work that way. I was supposed to come to the AIA meeting that night and I was supposed to meet those people. It was Gods guidance for me to finally start truly accepting my faith and opening my heart, soul, mind to Him.

A year and a half ago, I slowly started my journey. As afraid and nervous I am, I am ready. I am ready for grace and forgiveness and repentance. I am ready to accept God into my home and for Him to work His beautiful magic in my life and I am ready to serve Him as best as I can and however I can.

This is my testimony and all the Glory goes to God.

Thursday, January 8, 2015

Blair Waldorf Inspired Outfit

Queen B

In college they have what are called "mixers" - or socials, etc - and it's basically a themed party. Now, these are extremely fun (who doesn't love a good themed party and dressing up!?) but at the same time, stressful. You either know what the theme is ahead of time and can plan your outfit days in advance, or you find out the day of and don't have time to put together an outfit until last minute..

So, I attended a mixer a few months ago and the theme was "high school stereotypes". SO fun! Cheerleaders, jocks, nerds. Of course, you'd wear the over dramatic stereotype attire of whatever you chose to dress up as. I didn't want to be a cheerleader, because, well, I was one for 13 years lol. I didn't want to dress up boyish as a jock. And I didn't have suspenders or anything nerdy-lookin to be a nerd.

I had started to love the "collared shirt under a sweater" look for the fall and winter, and I realized if I wear that with a skater skirt and some knee high socks, I could be a prep! 
-I lowkey really wanted to dress as the "preppy girl" anyways ;)

& that's exactly what I did! 


white sweater (kohls), plaid collared button up (target) underneath, 
sleeves rolled up, white wrist watch (kohl's), pearl earrings, 
black skater skirt (kohl's), tops tucked in, white knee high socks (forever21), black bootie wedges (target)


Regularly, I am a HUGE fan of the "skater skirt w/ knee high socks" look and wear this outfit all the time. So I was already comfortable with it. 

& then I realized as I was taking selfies of my outfit - this could definitely be a Blair Waldorf inspired outfit!! & i LOVED it! 

This outfit was put together so last minute with pieces I already owned, stuff I wear on the regular, and ended up being such a big hit. I received so many compliments & I felt very proud of this :) 
(and it doesn't hurt that I have short brunette hair as well, I should've added a headband dangit)

BUT here is my Blair Waldorf "Queen B" inspired outfit!! I will forever adore this look ..& her 

xoxo

Monday, December 15, 2014

What Is The Meaning of Life?

i truly, 100% believe that the meaning of life is happiness - to be happy - & to love and be loved - & to live a positive life with a positive mind set.

no matter what you're going through or struggling with in your life, waking up every day feeling happy with positive thoughts and love in your heart is the ultimate goal. it will completely change your life around if you have those things a part of your every day life and as your top priorities.

that is the bigger picture. the framework for the house. the foundation. after that will follow you spending more time with family and friends, enjoying every day tasks just because you have the opportunity to do them, being a hard working person and going full force towards what you truly want to do in life, etc.
whether you're growing in high school, finding yourself in college, or in the middle of your life and feel like you're stuck in a lifestyle you cant get out of - you can do this. anyone can start this second and change their life around.

i believe you must love yourself before you can love others. but having a genuinely caring heart and soul is so extremely important in this crazy world we all live in. we are truly meant to love and be loved. whether its a spouse, family, friends, animals, a hobby, it does not matter. love others first, love yourself, and allow others to love you. it seems as though the magic of love is lost for a lot of individuals & if you can dig deep into your heart and soul, and see that love is the best thing in life, it will lead to so much more happiness.

all it takes is a promise to yourself and a switch in your mind, to start living a positive lifestyle. we're all humans, we all have bad days, negatives, sins, bad thoughts, struggles with life and our inner selves, etc. this does not mean all of those will go away. living a positive life with positive thoughts means taking a step back and truly understanding.. seeing.. others' views, other lifestyles, how people react, how i react to things, how i am as a person. am i being 100% the person that i want to be and the best person i can be? a positive lifestyle is about taking all those negative thoughts/actions/struggles and remembering to simply think positive during them. see the positive in a situation. be the positive in a situation. everyone has their own personal purpose to their life, and living the lifestyle is to never, ever forget that purpose.

"being happy" has to be one of the hardest things we struggle with. there is no switch to turn your moods on and off. but think a little deeper about that. your life is YOUR LIFE! you choose what you do with it, whether you believe that or not. you work at a 9-5 desk job and staple papers most of your day? enjoy that! some people don't even own a stapler. you're a stay at home mom with your 4 wild kids and wish you had a job because you struggle to make ends meet? enjoy every single crazy day with every single crazy kid no matter what the situation is. you have an amazing job that pays well but feel your life is dull or missing something? work on yourself and your inner happiness and the rest will follow. being happy is a choice! there's a book called "The Power of Now" by Eckhart Tolle and basically what i tried to show above, is enjoy and be happy about the moment you're living in and what you're doing right now, no matter the circumstances. there are people who have nothing yet are so happy and joyful with their life because they choose to just - "be happy".

having a positive mind, love in your heart, and being happy - they all tie together and intertwine. if you have one, it will lead to the other two - if you let it. they are the deeper meaning of life, the easy meaning of life that can be brought to the surface, the meaning that most people don't realize is right there.

being young, living in a crazy world, in my jumbled mind and thoughts, i decided to think all of this through. it took me a few years to even comprehend all of this. and even to this day i'm still working on it and don't 100% understand all of this. but it was a huge lifestyle change and it truly changed me as a person. i hope others read this and feel inspired or interested & curious to understand this too and think about their life. because its your life and your lifestyle and your choice to make the most out of it.


Monday, September 15, 2014

Going Through Sorority Recruitment

Although I did not end up going all the way through the recruitment process, I have pictures of my outfits for the weekend! Our rush was friday-sunday. Here is what I would have worn!

Friday was our "open house" day with the "business casual" theme. Dress pants, nice blouse, semi formal dress, jackets, etc. No denim was allowed!
I wore a cobalt blue lace A-line dress, with a black blazer over top (it was chilly outside and it added some professionalism to the dress) & black wedge booties
-dress is from Kohls
-blazer and shoes from Target

Saturday was our "philanthropy" day where we got to dress casual. We received a coral Go Greek tshirt for this day and were allowed to pair it with whatever we chose to wear. I do not have pictures from this day, but I paired the coral tshirt with dark washed jeans and a pair of white converse. As well as my simple Pandora bracelet and pearl earrings!

Sunday was the "dress to impress" day, where we were to go all out glam and fancy. It was better to be overdressed than underdressed! We were suggested to wear a black dress and high heels. 
I wore a black lace dress, with bell shaped see through lace long sleeves. Pairing it with nude pumps and a black and diamond statement necklace! This was my favorite look- I loved my dress and necklace!
-dress and shoes are from Ross
-necklace is from Target

Unfortunately, recruitment didn't work out for me this weekend. It sucks, but it was my own fault as to why it didn't. And I believe everything happens for a reason! It just makes me want to work that much harder in school to get my -ish together. 
I cannot wait to find my home and be with my sisters soon enough!! 

xoxo

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Favorite Fall Fashion

I love fall fashion just as much as I love summer fashion. And being addicted to Pinterest... makes me wish I had all the money in the world to shop every new season! But one thing I can afford to do is find adorable outfits to use as inspiration with the wardrobe I already have.

So here are some of my current loves for the Fall season!
(all pictures taken from pinterest)



I think these are kind of transition outfits, where the weather isnt quite hot summer weather anymore but you can still get away with wearing a dress and light pieces. 
1st pic- long sleeve dress with long sleeve tied around the waist
2nd pic- flowy dress with thigh high socks and boots
3rd pic- jeans, chucks, tank top and a cardigan
ALL very light and basic options to transition into the cool weather






These top 4 outfits I definitely put into the 'fall' clothing category. But I also feel any fall outfit could be worn in the winter time as well. For me, I am going to live in sweaters and flannels this fall but I love option 2 and 4 as the more 'going out' outfits for the fall time! 
1st pic- jeans, flannel, scarf and hat (cant get more fall than that)
2nd pic- skirt (with tights of course for the fall), sweater and a scarf
3rd pic- top, leggings, cardigan, scarf and boots (your average fall outfit)
4th pic- leather/liquid/pleather pants/leggings, baggy sweater, heels and some jewelry!


My current Fall Fashion Favorites!!
xoxo